All I've got left is a scorched pterygium and an occasional heart murmur, while cunts like Phil get to live in their beachside investment properties, pissing on everything I ever achieved.

Surf-Lit: “My mind is back on the halcyon days. The comps. The parties. The waves. The cheers I’d get from the crowd as I sunk rails, sunk piss, sunk myself.”

A modern surfing tragedy.

When I get to Phil’s joint he’s just finished working out.

Sweat mattes his grey singlet and sweatshirt, and turns his already pale skin translucent. With his short, stocky build and barbershop fade he looks more rugby jock than surfer.

‘Sorry bro, still a little juicy,’ he says as he shakes my hand, before reaching for a towel to wipe himself down. “Thanks for coming over. Welcome to my pad.”

It’s a beachside-adjacent apartment. New building. Prime location. The view out across the lineup we both surf, Main Peak, is impeccable. Better than any magazine double page spread. This is the same Peak I grew up on. The Peak I now can’t afford a place anywhere within ten miles of.

His place is spotless. Black leather lounge. Small black flatscreen TV. Non descript black bookcase. You’d think it was a hotel room, if not for the weight bench and rack of four brand new boards across the near wall.

“New boards,” I ask

“Yep, the new sleds. Just had them delivered from Surfboard Warehouse. Two Black Boxes, two DX1s.”

“Oh yeah, right.” I rack my mind trying to think who shaped them. I haven’t been able to afford a new board in years. “JS and, ah, DHD?”

“Correct. Both shapers recently won Stab in the Dark. I like to try and keep on the best equipment.”

He takes out one of the DHDs from the rack and puts it under his arm, but seems to be holding it too far back from the midpoint. I see it’s the only board without a GoPro mount.

“They’re all the same dimensions too, but I got different tail shapes for each of them. Custom. They’re my go to boards for everyday around here. “

“Right. So-”

“Of course I like to have a bit of fun, too,” he continues as he puts the board back in the rack. “I’m not just a high- performance guy. I’ve got a mid-length and a Beater down in the garage for those muck around days, as well as an alaia”

He pronounces it, Aliyah.

Cool.

Above the boards I notice three framed surf shots. All seemingly taken at the same spot, a jungle lined point break. Looks like Burger World. All the shots are of an identical turn. A functional but awkward forehand hook. Knees barely bent, upper body stiff. Not a bad spray, I guess. The only discernible difference is the surfer’s gear. In the first shot it’s knee lengths and yellow rashie. Second, floral shorts and open button up shirt. Third, plain black boardies, and a front zip vest.

“Is this you?” I ask.

“Yep, My patented hack,” he chuckles. “I know, it’s a bit narcissistic. But hey, you spend that much money on a Ments trip. You want something to remember it by, right?”

He shrugs, answering his own rhetorical question, and throws his towel over the door behind me, slinging cold sweat onto my face.

This guy’s tripping. Time to get to it.

“So where’s this…”

“Hang on, check out this,” he says, cutting me off again. “You don’t get these for free, that’s for sure.”

He goes to the bookcase. Placed between a copy of The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck and Let My People Go Surfing is a small trophy of a surfer riding under a curling wave. One of those cheap ones you’d see at any kids sports presentation.

He picks it up and hands it to me carefully.

“Third place, open B division, City boardriders ‘17. It was a tough year, but a good year. We had great conditions that suited my surfing and I was lucky enough to string a few decent events together. Met some great crew too.”

“Oh yeah right, City,” I say, inspecting the trophy.

The lip of the wave has a sharp silver cap on it, almost like a spear tip.

“Do those guys still run?”

“No, they don’t. They folded that year due to lack of competitors.“

I squeeze the tip between my thumb and forefinger.

“Bummer.”

“You used to do alright in the comps, yeah?” he asks.

“Oh, that was a long time ago.”

“C’mon man, I heard you were a legend back in the day.”

“Not really…”

“Sam ‘Shred Dog’ Smith, with the best forehand hack in the business. Is it true you beat Shane Beschen in the final at Huntington one year?”

“No mate, it was Shane Bevan in the third round at Surfest. And it was only through an interference.

“Oh, right. Still. Impressive.”

I look out the window to Main Peak. There’s a nice little swell running. Very contestable. I imagine myself out there, Shred Dog Smith, circa ‘93. Shreddin’ lips. Slammin’ heads. I haven’t heard that name in an eternity.

“A long time ago,” I say to myself again.

With the trophy still in hand, I think of my own collection of gongs gathering dust in the back shed. ACCs. Regional amateur titles. The two-star QS. All worth nothing now.

My watch beeps me back to attention. It’s midday. Fuck it, I’m already running late.

“So, c’mon, where’s this…”

But the cunt cuts me off again.

“I have some footage.”

“Sorry?”

“Some footage. Of me surfing. I was wondering…”

I sense where this is going. Can this guy not take a cue?

“… well, I sent it in to those high performance guys at Cabarita but they don’t reply to my emails anymore and…”

I let out a heavy sigh. ”Mate. Look…“

“It’s just a five-minute cut. GoPro and iPhone footage mainly. I just want to know if I’m rotating my arms enough through my top turns…”

“I really don’t know if I’d have much to tell you.”

“Oh please, you still rip. I watched you taking apart Mains last winter when I moved here and I’m in awe. In fact, this is sort of embarrassing to say, but…” He turns and looks out across Main Peak, so I can’t see his face. “I model my surfing off yours.”

For a second I feel pity for him. This guy’s a kook, but he’s got money. All the trappings of success. Brand new apartment. Brand new boards. What’s he doing looking up to a piece of shit has-been like me? He doesn’t want my life.

“Well, shit, thanks, but…”

“So just watch my video. Tell me where I’m going wrong. I’ll pay you.”

“I can’t. “

“Yes you can. This is what I want. This is what you will do for me.”

He turns back to face me. “I want to be like you. I want to dominate Main Peak. I want people to call me ‘Shred Dog’ Phil Davies. I want to be respected.”

He looks me in the eye now.

“Like you were. “

Like I was? Is this prick taunting me? What the fuck does this he know about respect?

I let him have it.

“Listen, you fucken kook, I didn’t come here to talk surfing. I barely even recognised your name when you called. I’m a plumber. You called me because your shitter is broken. I’m busy. I’ve got three more jobs to get through today. I haven’t surfed in six months. The wife and kids have left me. I got nothing except a bad back and a bunch of old trophies nobody cares about anymore.”

I throw his shitty trophy back to him.

“And you. You’ve got all the gear and no idea, mate. You moved into Mains not even a year ago and act like you own the joint because you can string a couple of turns together and surf it a few times a week. Fact is, if this was fifteen years ago you would have already had your head punched in. Probably by me.”

He stands there with a stupid look on his face, trophy by his side.

“But nowadays everybody’s too scared to lay a finger in case they get sued. So arsehats like you are able to strut around the joint with your shithouse style and pop out boards and weak cunt trophies acting like you own it. You own nothing.”

I take a breath, calm myself down. That felt good. Too good.

“Now. Are you going to show me this fucking leaky dunny, or what?”

“I’m sorry. It’s this way,” he says pointing down the hallway. “I really am sorry, I didn’t mean to…”

“I don’t want to hear it.”

So I get down on my hands and knees and get to work, sifting through his shit. But my mind is back on the halcyon days. The comps. The parties. The waves. The cheers I’d get from the crowd as I sunk rails, sunk piss, sunk myself. Then there was the amphetamine blowout. The string of toxic relationships. The money lost on dodgy real estate deals. The eventual settling down with the kids I hated only a little less than I did the wife. And now even they’re gone.

All I’ve got left is a scorched pterygium and an occasional heart murmur, while cunts like Phil get to live in their beachside investment properties, pissing on everything I ever achieved.

I think about the monument to compromise my life has become as I finally get the toilet flushing.

My watch beeps at me again. Fuck it. I really am running late.

I walk back out to the loungeroom . Phil’s in the downward dog pose, WSL podcast playing through his phone speakers.

“It’s done.”

“Oh, cool. Thanks,” he says as he stands back up. “Look I’m sorry about before, I really am.”

“It’s fine.”

I head for the door.

“Hey Sam, before you go…” He reaches for his phone and switches off the podcast.

“Can I at least get a selfie? I’ve got a large following on social and I can tag your business in for a plug. It could definitely lead to more work for you.”

“Yeah, ok. Whatever. “

“Here, hold this.” He passes me the trophy and stands next to me, arm outstretched in front of us for the shot. I can feel his damp, sweaty skin against mine. Sickening.

“Thanks,” he says, “I can’t wait to upload this. Do you have TikTok? No? Cool.”

I’m almost out the door when he grabs my arm.

“Wait! You’ve got my trophy.”

I had forgotten I was still holding it. I guess it felt comfortable having one back in my hand.

“Oh by the way,” he says. “I know you quoted me cash, but can I pay by card and get you to invoice me? That way I can write this off for tax purposes.”

Something about his request triggers me. Maybe it’s the audacity of it. Maybe it’s some long-dormant anger awakened by the nostalgia.

I see a bright light, and a wave of rage sweeps over me. I feel… energised. Like it’s ‘93 and I’m about to tag the end section to break combo, and win the comp.

In a flash, I raise the trophy above my head, its silver cap glistening in the early afternoon sun now streaming in through the window. From the line up a small flash would be seen as I bring the trophy down over Phil’s head, the keen metal of the silver lip cracking him open like a watermelon.

This is it. Shred Dog Smith’s last, best forehand slash. I hear cheers coming from the beach across the road.

But then the bright light fades and I realise I haven’t even moved. The trophy is still in my hand, and Phil’s still standing there waiting for my response, with that same stupid fucking look on his face.

I sigh.

“Sure mate. Would you like to Paywave?”

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Watch: Brave young man boldly punctures theory that Great White sharks are vicious man-eaters, jumps on top of one and attempts to give loving squeeze!

It's anti-depressive!

We are a divided people and angry. Calling each other names on Presidential debate stages, harboring ill-will toward a variety of races and credos. Filled with malice but even in these darkest of days heroes rise in order to challenge us to live better lives.

And take two young men who were out on a boat ride, one sunshiny day, when they saw a massive shark fin jutting through the water’s surface.

One of the young men, wearing exiting hotpants, decided to test the theory that sharks, particularly Great Whites, are vicious young/old man-eaters and hopped off the boat to give the beast a squeeze.

The shark, clearly confused, initially recoils but then swings close to the boat maybe asking for more while the young man ponders his life direction.

It is difficult to know for certain what thoughts flicker in the Great White mind but back to the hotpants.

Have you ever worn?

I assume they are for free-diving or somesuch but very chic and I would maybe like to try a pair out surfing.

I think they could not only bridge the inter-species divide but also the more cavernous human-human divide.

Yes?

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Beach horror: Suntanning woman killed by twenty-five-ton front-end loader on Californian beach

The machinery was part of a dredging operation designed to clear the channel which has grown dangerously shallow for boaters coming in and out of the harbor. 

Anti-depressive this ain’t. 

On Monday, a sleeping woman was killed after being run-over by a fifty-thousand pound front-end loader on Oceanside Harbor beach, thirty-eight miles north of San Diego.

The machinery was part of this fall’s dredging operation designed to clear the channel which has grown dangerously shallow for boaters coming in and out of the harbor. 

Typically, the waterway splitting the jetties is cleared each spring to a depth of about twenty-five feet. 

As a result of Covid-induced workhand shortage, the dredging was not completed and shoals have piled up creating shallows of up to eight feet near the South jetty, tricky for vessels ― especially sailboats ― to navigate.  

(And we all know how exhausting it is to bring in the Jeanneau forty-four on a south swell.)

Both the Oceanside City Council and the U.S. Army Corps of Engineers requested the additional dredging for this fall. 

The death, while officially ruled an accident by the police, still left an impression on many.  

Talking to Fox 5, local Jay Burneo said, “I was going surfing around 8:30 this morning. There was a woman who was leaning against a wall, she looked like she was going to pass out. There was a gentleman that asked if she was OK and she seemed to say, ‘I’m OK.’  When I came back out of the water, I saw her laying here crumbled up and that’s when a police officer told me what happened.”

I spoke with John Daniels, owner of the long-standing LTR Surf School, who was on the beach when it happened.  

“Around 9:45 I saw a woman sort of staggering and my buddy made sure she was doing alright. She said ‘Yeah, yeah, I’m fine.’ She didn’t want any water or anything. I saw her move her leg a bit and thought that it was no big deal.”

Less than fifteen minutes later, the woman was dead. 

“Something caught me eye. I noticed a lifeguard truck, a loader with giant wheels, and a yellow tarp where the woman was laying just a few minutes ago. I told my kids to wait for a second and I ran over and told the lifeguard, ‘Hey, I think that woman was just alive, I just saw her moving.  I think she overdosed. Maybe you can push some Narcan into her.’  But my buddy was like ‘Back away.’ Then I put two and two together. At that point, I was pretty rattled but had to go on. A new group was showing up and I had to shake it off like a dog throws water off its back. It’s rough.”

After the woman was struck, police cordoned off the area with caution tape.  

Maybe a proper thing to do before the front-end loader started ripping around a public beach.

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Open Thread: Comment Live as World Number One Donald Trump takes on World Number Two Joe Biden in first Presidential Debate at Case Western Reserve University!

Six exciting heats in 90 minutes!

Professional surfing is off the books for the foreseeable future but, magically, we have action in the water for six exciting heats. Gabriel Medina is not around nor is Kelly Slater. John John Florence may or may not be sailing, Filipe Toledo may or may not be an official resident of San Clemente, California, World Surf League CEO Erik Logan is certainly SUPping but no worries because entertainment is here.

The very first 2020 United States Presidential debate between current World Number One Donald J. Trump and presumable World Number Two Joseph Biden.

Do you feel the thrill?

The frisson?

Oh you must drop what you’re doing and/or minimize its screen and meet with friends to roll over the hits, the misses, the little jams off the top.

Joe Turpel is, unfortunately, also MIA but we have Chris Wallace and more importantly you.

And without further ado…

Click here. Or here. Maybe here. TV?

Wherever.

Just comment live!

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Opportunity: Shower with biodegradable soap after an invigorating Malibu surf for the unbelievably low annual price of $1530 ($2295 if you SUP)!

Act fast!

Finally. Finally, finally but finally the classic “post-surf biodegradable soap shower, board locker and vending machine that sells masks conundrum right across the street from Malibu’s famed Surfrider Beach” has been solved and just in time for winter.

But it is with great pride that I introduce to you Traveler Surf Club Malibu.

And let us learn via the chic, minimalist/camp vibes website:

Located at iconic 1st Point at Surfrider Beach where perfect righthand point waves peel all day long. The club serves surfers and swimmers, who want a clean, safe and comfortable re-entry point from the waters of the Pacific Ocean back to life on land.

Our mission is to encourage ocean lovers to spend more time doing what they love and to provide a clean, safe space to transition to and from the ocean. As Los Angeles County allows beach access to active recreational users, we are able to provide a space for board storage, a short walking distance to waves and hygienic amenities, so that club members can spend time in the ocean with reduced exposure to crowded public areas.

The Traveler Surf Club in Malibu has a hot outdoor shower stocked with biodegradable soap at all times. Members have 24 hour access to the club and storage lockers with keyless entry.

Club rules require members to practice safe social distancing at all times and the club space has a hygiene station so that members can sanitize any touch surfaces that they come in contact with.

Our club vending machine is stocked with wax, snacks, Masks cold drinks and basic surf essentials so that you do not have to make in-person purchases for small items.

How much?

My only question is can members stand up and sleep in their locker for the surfboard price?

Also, does the vending machine sell Laird SuperFoods Coffee Creamer?

Places in the lineup?

Very exciting.

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