Part addiction memoir, part sociological study, new book The Drop “dismantles the myth of surfing as a radiantly wholesome lifestyle immune to the darker temptations of the culture…"
It’s a sad trajectory we know all too well.
Ace surfer wins world titles and/or rides giant waves only to fall into substance abuse in the post-athletic years.
It makes no sense. And yet it makes perfect sense.
The Drop: How the Most Addictive Sport Can Help Us Understand Addiction and Recovery, by Thad Ziolkowski, explores this phenomenon at length. Part addiction memoir, part sociological study, part spiritual odyssey, Thad “dismantles the myth of surfing as a radiantly wholesome lifestyle immune to the darker temptations of the culture and discovers among the rubble a new way to understand and ultimately overcome addiction.”
A lifelong surfer, a Yale PhD, a Guggenheim fellow, the author of the memoir On A Wave, Thad lives with his family in New Jersey.
What compelled you to write The Drop?
When I started surfing, age 10, I was struck by the charisma of surfing compared to other things. I played several sports, I loved listening to music and reading, but surfing trumped all that, especially when the waves were good: it was impossible to think of anything else.

When I left the beach to go off to college, I felt that the only way I would be able to focus on my studies was to quit surfing, quit it like a drug. I was also deeply troubled by the prospect of surfing only occasionally, of being anything less than absolutely on my game. It was all or nothing. Which is itself a very addictive way of looking at things, one surf culture enforces with its contempt for dilettantes combined with the whole spirit of “go for it!”—of total commitment.
During the years when I wasn’t surfing, when I was living the life of a poet in the city, I became addicted to alcohol and drugs. I never imagined I would ever surf again and yet when I was at my lowest point I found myself at the beach in Far Rockaway. I bought a board, I went surfing, and it all came back to life, who I was and how it felt before the darkness crowded in.
Surfing was something other than drinking and drugging to feel excited about. It carried me back to when I was a child again — I was a happy, frothing grom when I was surfing. It was something to quit smoking for, to get fit for — and ultimately to get sober for.
But as soon as I started surfing again, I also felt its old power to eclipse everything else, and I had rein myself back in several times — not throw away everything I had worked for and move to Kauai, for instance.
Then there was the whole issue of surfer drug addicts — surfers I had known growing up, and famous ones —Michael Peterson, Jeff Hakman, Mike Hynson, Lynne Boyer, Tom Carroll, Kong, Buttons, Flea, Mel, Ruffo, And of course Andy Irons. But many others, of all levels and renown, known only to the surf world insiders and a few others.
So I had thought a lot about the connection between surfing and addiction, and lived it, and The Drop is the result.
What was the most surprising/unexpected thing you found in your research?
The existence of what neurologists call “opponent processes,” biochemicals that are produced in response to any experience that makes you tipsy, high, or drunk — a line of cocaine but also falling in love or violently grieving — or riding the wave of your life.
The theory that accounts for opponent processes is that at its most basic level the brain has evolved to be a contrast detector. The brain’s default setting is a clear-headed neutrality that keeps us ready to respond to our environment — to get food, sex and drink, mainly, and to respond to threats.
The upshot is that try as we might to get and stay high, or stoked, the wily brain is always bringing us back down to earth.
Did you have trouble getting surfer addicts to open up to you about this topic?
In some cases, for sure. And I respect and sympathize with the desire not to be publicly linked to addiction. It hasn’t exactly been easy for me to come out as an addict! Despite all the progress that’s been made since the 1980s, when researchers found compelling evidence that addiction is a chronic disorder of the brain, addiction still elicits a lot of knee-jerk disapproval and moralizing.
And in addition to the wider social stigma of addiction, there’s a tradition in surfing of circling the wagons and keeping mum on the darker aspects of the sport.
But I benefitted by beginning my book after the appearance of Kissed by God, the documentary in which Andy Irons’s inner circle speaks candidly about his struggles with addiction.
Luckily, I also passed muster with certain well-known surfers. Word then went out that I could be trusted and folks began to tell their stories. For addicts in recovery, it’s considered beneficial to be open about their addiction, because it teaches others the truth about it, and it helps establish self-acceptance and generosity. So in the case of surfers in recovery there was a pressure exerted by the recovery community to share and be open. Privacy can feel like secretiveness, and keeping secrets is not good for recovering addicts.
What’s the take-away of the book — what does surfing have to teach us about addiction?
Surfers often talk about getting “hooked” on surfing after their first real wave. There’s a pride and pleasure taken in being seized, a sense of specialness, of election. Surfers as the Chosen. Only a surfer knows the feeling.
And truly, surfing is a blessing, a good addiction. It’s one of the great blessings of my life, for sure.
But it won’t save you from meth and opioids and crack. If anything, surfing may prime you for addiction to stronger forms of intoxication, stronger rushes. The very best surfers in the world have fallen to hard drugs, after all. Their stories, along with the latest science on addiction, have a lot to tell us.
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Reading The Drop right now. Really quite very good.
That dude called me when he was working on it and if I had known he was this good I would have helped him even more.
I’ve always said surfing should be treated like a Class 1 chemical addiction or whatever: IT can be as all-consuming and life-wrecking as any drug.
And that’s that T____ Z_____ details in the book with great eloquence and furious lingo.
Pulitzer?
Maybe. It’s pretty danged good.
Tom Carroll’s first tell all had no mention of drugs.
I dont know the timeline but maybe he didn’t have a drug problem for the first tell all. But the truth did come out, dinnit?
Until recently Occy had a ‘drinking problem’ as did Curren. ‘Weed’ is a drug.
Weed just makes smart people dumber and dumb people paranoid and forgetful. Weed is debillitating and more insidious than it gets credit for, but it’s not meth or opioids.
Please engage brain before typing.
I come to beachgrit.com to join all y’all in brain disengagement.
You do go on.
Didn’t someone write a book about Tom Carroll’s drug problem?
And Occy’s drug problems were even mentioned in SURFER Magazine.
No smoke screen there.
And what was Curren’s problem, other than weed?
It hasn’t been covered up.
Sea of Darkness was honest.
So was the doco about Andy and Bruce Irons.
Everyone knows Hakman had a heroin problem.
Surfing should be classified as an addiction, because it is.
Surfers get addicted to endorphins and adrenaline and other “Liqueurs of fear” and when they can’t get them naturally, they turn to alcohol and drugs.
That’s hardly been a hidden fact about surfers.
it’s gotta be 5ft+ (euro size) to get me hard.
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That’s just normal
Real surfing starts at double overhead, and unless it’s barreling, anything smaller is just to keep ya lungs clear of bong tar…
P.S.
though admittedly even at my fittest 20 yrs ago I’ve never surfed bigger than 4×OH, and these days I’m happy with nice clean head high point peelers unless I’m in a nice warm place like Indo for at least a month.
Ha!
Oh no, that’s a bummer.
I actually almost feel empathetic sympathy for you now you’re all sensible and growed up like Lisa instead of being naughty and fun like Bart.
But hey, all’s cool, you’re the guy who mentioned (with an earnest straight face) how shocked you were that Leo DeCaprio broke up with some slapper when she laughed at his flabby guts and soft cock, so I understand you don’t quite grasp the concept of desolving ones personal boundaries with self-depracating comedic satire in these parts.
I guess ya just got tired, had a nice nap, yaaaawn, and woke up woke…
P.S.
How’s things going over at stab and inertia etc ?
P.P.S.
There’s a lot of great English humour you may have missed out on whilst growing up in the mean ghetto of the OC.
Perhaps start with some Monty Python before trying the Young Ones and then moving onto Blackadder.
Either that or just change your name to Earnest…
The phrase “correlation does not imply causation” refers to the inability to legitimately deduce a cause-and-effect relationship between two events or variables solely on the basis of an observed association or correlation between them.
The idea that “correlation implies causation” is an example of a questionable-cause logical fallacy, in which two events occurring together are taken to have established a cause-and-effect relationship. “
Surfing does save people.
Ask any life long surfer and they will tell you of a time in their life that surfing pulled them thru the darkness.
Most surfers rarely surf waves of consequence. Amongst the sub group of surfers that surf heavy waves there may be a few examples of people who started looking for a similar high on land thru drugs. But it would be almost impossible to separate out other factors that contributed.
Surfing and drugs can offer a sense of escape from the difficulties that we face as humans.
That is the main connection between the two
Correlation? Cause and effect?
Did Sally write that for you?
She was, the smart one of the group that went on to college.
J_____ B____??!?!?
Hell I’ve s____ bigger than him.
I helped that dude with that book because I’ve been sayin all along that surfing should be classified as an addiction: Endorphins are more powerful than heroin, etc.
And it’s why surfers have historically had so much trouble with drugs and alcohol.
Hope he spelled my name right.
And now this:
Toast, shaped like the nation of Australia.
Is this a prophecy?
Will China attack?
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It ‘is’ an addiction.
Endorphins? Definitely.
Morrey called it when you caught a wave–“brain sparkle”.
I’ve been coming back for more for decade after decade after decade.
Morey.
You won’t find sharks or pirates in Lemoore.
prior to this article i was planning to hit bottom after i am too old to surf, pingas for breakfast, bumps for lunch, afternoon doobies, cocktails for dinner and morphine for bed…still might
Yes! Capitalizing on “soft science” looks like it might be economically viable in this new feely world we inhabit.
surfing’s completely dictated where I live and where I’ve travelled. every time (except for once when I moved to Vancouver for a year. what a waste of time that was). it’s like surfing was formulated perfectly to be addictive. lately I’ve started surfing larger waves which has proven to be a whole extra level addictive.
I can assure you it wouldn’t be a pack of boring nerdy drivel like this Thad guys sounds…
The only thing in that shot that I find baffling is that douchebag looking guy with the douchebag woolly ‘Chas hat’ on in what’s obviously not a cold room…
cocaine affects everyone differently…and the man is from Georgia
Thad Dismantles The Myth could be the name of a rad new band
As a career druggy boozer in my mid 50’s I thought everyone knew this already.
Heck even my own parents knew back in the mid ’70’s that surfers were bad news in this respect and attempted to delay my introduction to ‘the life’.
My ex wife, relatives, many girlfriends and old school mates still consider me and my close acquaintances to be more akin to a (dis)’honorable organisation’ than sportsmen, even though we’re fit and active.
The only potential positive outcome of anyone reading this book is that they never start surfing so we can have it uncrowded again without all the do-gooders getting in the way.
Best I crack a coldy and pack william to relieve my mind of any thoughts of Thad’s ‘cash-in’ book aimed at non surfers and surfers families etc.
P.S.
Surfers don’t give up riding waves to go to school, they give up school to surf more if their school isn’t near the beach, and only have time off from surfing due to injury, rehab, jail and parties where they get stuck miles from the coast with a crashed car and the cops on their tail, and don’t have money left for transport till the next deal comes through.
Surfers are by nature pirates and vagabonds, other surfie wave riding types are a pain in the arse who should stick to stab and inertia etc and leave BG well alone.
P.P.S.
Never trust anyone who says stuff like
“ultimately to get sober for”,
“it hasn’t exactly been easy for me to come out as an addict”, or
“not throw away everything I had worked for and move to Kauai”.
Throwing away everything to move somewhere like Kauai is about the most admirable thing any surfer could do, and then crack a coldy while sparking one up when he gets there to rejoice his life choice.
Thad doesn’t sound like BG material, not BG material at all.
P.P.P.S.
Smackies and tweakers suck the pus from a dead dogs dick…
“Surfers are by nature pirates”
Yup.
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“During the years when I wasn’t surfing, when I was living the life of a poet in the city..”
The author might appreciate it if the link to buying his book sends you to the right place.